Not Good Enough

Yeah. No hook on this one. Just venting.

I’ve never been perfect, won’t ever claim to be
Never been important like the rest of Taylor’s speech
Never been too proud to admit it’s not a strain to think
I’ve never been good enough for you. That’s plain to see
Self-esteem is a really tricky achievement
It’s the way you feel about yourself, no one has to believe it
Clearly the person I see in my reflection
Could never pass your Disney Prince inspection
What’s so bad is that you’ll move on like a nomad
And I’m sitting here bawling like gonads
I just wanna be the guy that you would want me to
Be. The Lord can be my Shepherd, I want his sheep to want me too
See, I’m pacing in my dorm room wonderin’ what I should do
Should I just betray everything I am like a Messianic Jew?
Should I continue being me hoping you see something new?
What on earth was I thinking when I went to talk to you?
gasp I don’t even know
It feels like I’m paying fines that I don’t even owe
Like I reaping grim harvests that I ain’t even sow
Life in all of it’s splenda still tastes like sweet n low
and chuckle you’ve gotta shut up and take it
Take the hand u were dealt, then shut up and play it
I guess that’s the lesson that you just made me learn
This might not be what I urned, but I’ve gotta let it burn
This doesn’t feel fair, I didn’t even see this coming
There were no warning signs so I just kept on running
Yeah, I felt lead on, but you don’t read minds
So do you blame the blind for misleading the blind?
Rhetorical questions to a deaf and mute oracle
Which only succeeds in making me feel horrible
I just wanna be the guy that you can always turn to
If you ever need anything then I would be the first to
Get it. you make my heart feel like it’ll burst through
My chest and fly around the heavens like a bird do
Nurse. Ooh. All that I want is everything that concerns you
Out of every single model, I’d prefer you
And that’s the dern truth, I don’t deserve you
Like I still get to see Paradise after eatin all the cursed fruit
I try to see us together and I get is a blurred view
When I see you in the library I feel like you’re a nerd too
But back to reality
No ceilings but gravity’s grabbin me
Draggin me away from the place that I’d rather be
Old habits keep New beginnings from happening
Like I wish that I could change for you
But I don’t think it’ll change your view
I don’t know anything to do
Since every guy is pretty much the same to you
I just thought that I was gonna be different
Now I think that I should’ve stayed blissfully ignorant
Window of opportunity I thought I should enter it
Only to freefall in love and now I’ve gotta deal with this
Decision and this idiot considered it
Why do all the dumbest decisions come from the brilliant?
I just wanted to be the guy that you could give your heart to
But I just ended up 500 Days of Summer part 2
Tried to be romantic on Titanic, now I’m just shark food
Tried to be Benjamin Button, but I’m too young for that part too
Your heart’s gone with the wind, frankly, you don’t give a damn or two
Had the Passion of an opera but phantom’s all I am to you
You’ll never remember this walk or midwest side story
I’m like Tulsa’s Romeo but a lot less gory
I’ve never been perfect, won’t ever make that claim again
Never been good enough for you, but I can remain a friend…

Friend Zone.

That’s good enough, right? Riiight… Nostic.